comments arent needed; just read. :3

god damn its a shame how things fall apart.

.....

But when things aren't built on solid foundations I guess that's what happens.

I kind of knew this was going to happen, but I didn't expect hell to break loose in Bolingbrook this soon; not like this.

I know everyone thinks this is just entertainment, but its hard to enjoy and spectate when you are in the ring. This is my drama as much as it is Adrian's Ari's and Donald's..and even Dre's idiot ass. This has been going on low key below the surface for about a month now. Only me Adrian and Ari really know what is going on. Ari and I are the only ones with a tad bit of logic, however, being on the inside does not make this situation add up.

Adrian is my best friend. Yes, I realize he is a fucking lunatic, but he is my friend regardless. Adrian has always been there for me, and just like when you guys go through something I have to be there for him. I don't abandon people. As far as Donald...fml..Lord knows me and that boy have been through it all. You would think that I would like the fact my ex boyfriend might get his ass beat, after all the crap we have dealt with, but i don't like it at all. Maybe its because after all this fucking time I'm still not completely over him. -__-

Its so pathetic but when this thing started (lets call it the "Winter Fucking Break Drama") I cried my eyes out over these kids. I didn't tell anyone how bent out of shape I was because I knew it was stupid for me to have feelings for these people.

And what sucks about this is that I just keep asking Dre to shut up and I ask Adrian to calm down and I try to talk to Don but all my mediation efforts are in vain. I feel like a mother watching the news and she sees that her darling children have robbed a bank.

But maybe that's what i get for trusting and genuinely liking everyone. Its time to let people go; which is obviously easier said than done for me.

This whole "Winter Fucking Break Drama" will be the last of my encounters with the S.O.D. What a sad way to spend the holidays; watching drama. I wont be there.

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