I PAINTED TODAY (but i cant get the paint off my hands)!

6-28-10

I woke up this morning feelin like p. diddy.

Okay so thats totally not true. I woke up this morning in a superior mood though. My hair is extremely fluffy today; and I have a cute dress on...Which reminds me I got invited to join this private online fashion website. They invited me because they checked out my blog and were "super impressed" with its design. Yes. I feel cool. I figure I should start dressing less like a bum and actually put on nice close. And now I have no excuses not to keep this blog up...and I thought noone looked at this thing but me. hehe..

On another note, I PAINTED TODAY! something I haven't done in a longgggg time. I started to paint a piece I started years ago. I cant even remember when I began, but i never finished it. I plan to paint several works this summer. It feels good to do something I haven't done in a while. I wanted to paint during the school year but I just didn't have time. I came up with so many ideas too. Unfortunately I lost the slip of paper I had written all my ideas on...ugh..I hope I can remember them all..or find the paper. And I wish this paint would come off my hands...Then again I kinda like it...it makes me feel like an artist..hehe..

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may and june 2010

5-15-10

These two months have been so similar and bland I might as well combine them as one post.
May was better than June because I had just come home for the summer. I was excited to be back and I missed my family and friends immensely. I participated in a few hang outs and did lots of shopping; shopping for clothes, men, and jobs. the first was the only successful quest. I met a few guys (ugh) all of them have been epic fails (but i will save that rant for a future post). The job search has been a failure also. No jobs whatsoever. I keep telling myself not to give up, but seeing how its half way through the summer already, I doubt I will be making money anytime soon. Despite these downfalls summer has been pretty nice so far. I spend most of my time with my family and i see my best friends a lot too; which is nice. Hopefully the second half of my summer will prove itself to be a fruitful one.

DAMN it feels good to be finished with those monthly updates....I feel as if a weight has been removed from my chest. :) Now on to the good stuff...

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april 2010 first year of college completed!

4-28-10

4-17-10

4-16-10

4-10-10

Yes, Grand Valley ends the school year at the end of April. Early right? I even made it home in time to see my friends off to prom. Anyways,

(Deep sigh). So many hangouts. So many tests. So many emotions. I have a crapload of thoughts on April so let's categorize and mention a few of them; starting with friends.

Friends: I didnt realize i would miss my GV fam so much when it was time to pack up and leave. I cried many a tear over these kids when i left. I was one of the first of the crew to go back home because i didnt have many finals to take. It was really sad. I guess when I think about it that's what happens when you live with people and get to know them over a year. I ate with them, we shared clothes, got lost downtown Grand Rapids together, partied together, took care of one another when we were feeling down or got sick... I remember when all I wanted was my friends back at home and i didnt even want to get to know the kids at grand valley; especially first semester. I felt like I didnt need friends because i had friends back home. Im so glad i changed my attititude and met some great people. I cant wait to go back to grand valley for next year.

Grades: ugh. I was so nervous about failing my ethics class I could barely sleep at night. I have never done so crappy in a class before. I hardly ever went to lectures (because i was embarrassed i sucked), and i didn't participate. On top of all that i didn't turn all my work in because i was just so far behind. Luckily for my stupid ass my professor is an easy grader and im a beast at writing papers. Instead of giving a final the professor gave a take home essay. FTW. I passed the class (barely) with a C+. My other classes went well though. I got A's and B.s in my other courses and i pulled a 3.0 GPA for second semester. I think I did pretty well for my first year. Could have been better, but I know for a fact that my grades will be better next fall. My main goal for next year is to raise my GPA.

Guys:My love life was basically non-existent at school. When i say i was not interested in any guys, i am not exaggerating in any way shape or form. I didn't want to be bothered with any of the grand valley guys. The only guy i thought i wanted to date had a girlfriend (fail). but after i found that out i basically didn't see anyone i wanted to date. And man, i wanted to date. badly. But i just wasn't going to find him on campus. Luckily for me there were plenty of other things to focus on at school besides guys, like Black Student Union and YBBW. Speaking of YBBW i was elected to the executive board and i am now a public relations rep for my sisterhood :). Another reason to be excited for next year :D

Family: oh how i missed them. i was so excited to see them; even though my dad decided not to take the truck up to school to pack all my stuff up. we ended up giving away some of my stuff because we couldn't fit it in the car. watching zach skip down the street with my fridge is an image i will keep in my mind for a long time. The ride home was pretty bittersweet; i was leaving my friends from school but at the same time i was coming home to family and my best friends, which might as well be family.

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update of march 2010

3-10-10

3-10-10

Woo! Thank God for Spring Break! Coming home for a well needed spring break was wonderful. I didn't go anywhere but i hung out with people i hadn't seen in a very long time, including a friend of mine who was going to the Air Force the following week. Even though spring break gave me some cool-out time March was a stressful month in all. I was struggling to get last minute work done and was stressing about finals in April. I Think the thoughts of being home for the summer the next month is what kept me going.

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february 2010

2-22-10

2-13-10

In case you didn't notice, i took several black and white photos this month. :) February was a chill month in terms of my social life. Hit up a few school basketball games, and a lot of kickbacks. My 19th birthday was celebrated back home with a few good friends. Classes were going well too.This month basically swept through quickly.

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update of january 2010

1-17-10

1-1-10

Like I said before "happy new year!" haha. Its a shame I didn't keep this blog up as often as I should have. But my not so new year's resolution is to update this baby on the regular. The first month of the year went by very quickly. I had lots of fun new year's eve/day with two of my best friends. (we got it in so hard) and the rest of the month i partied just as hard. I also had some good times with my GV fam also. Not too much took place in January but it was a fun set of weeks.

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december 2009 update

12-4-09

12-12-09

12-19-09

12-25-09

I took several pictures this month; here are a few samples. December was a GOOD month. From the first snow of the year to Christmas parties all the way until New Years Eve I had a great time. This month I decided I was going to love Grand Valley, even if it didnt love me back. Instead of moping around and missing family and complaining I didnt have friends I threw myself into my classes and the activities I was involved in. In doing so I realized I had amazing people around me; and even though they werent my friends from home, they were perfect for me in a different way. Along with hanging out with friends, and endless shopping, my family took our annual trip to Florida for Christmas and we had a GREAT time. December was lovely

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update of november 2009

11-21-09

11-28-09

I guess I should update you guys now. November was a pretty chill month. I took midterms and did great on all of them. I continued to get acquainted with Grand Valley, and I got more involved with the clubs I was in; which really helped me love the school and the people more. First semester I did a lot of complaining about wanting to go home. I had plenty of friends at gvsu but I just felt like I needed to come home. Luckily Thanksgiving Break was wonderful. My good friend's mom gave birth to a gorgeous girl, and I got to see my besties who I hadn't seen in months.

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hello world..again

My God it's been a while since I updated this thing. First off, "Happy New Year!" haha wow it has been a long time..the last entry I posted was in October of last year (as if you couldnt see that). Lots has changed since then for example, I cut alllll my hair off (peep the picture).

For starters, let me apologize to whoever is reading this thing. I obviously did not continue the layout for this blog. I didnt take pictures daily nor did I keep writing entries. Not to put the blame on others, but since my other friends stopped updating their blogs I had no real reason to check the website or update mine. My best friends were the primary reason I created the blog in the first place. However, I've decided to continue updating the blog on the regular basis even if nobody looks at it. I think the page will serve as some type of online diary for me; just to keep myself on track so I can reflect on where i've been and look at where i'm headed.

I doubt the blog will be like it was before. I will still post pictures, but I wont be taking a picture for every day. Obviously it didnt happen last year and it's not going to happen now; im just too busy. Im still not sure about the direction of the blog, but we will see where it takes us :) I do know that the next few posts will be updates from each month last year until now.

Enjoy

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